There are different kinds of treachery, but betrayal is betrayal wherever you find it.

By betrayal, I mean promising to be on your side, then being on somebody else’s.

–  Jeanette Winterson

I feel betrayed. It seems incredibly coincidental that I’m quoting from a source that describes how the inability to understand differences amongst human beings can lead to rejection and isolation. It is also incredibly ironic that while I start to grow closer to Literature, I am also growing more distant from it.

I think many would agree with me that the past year’s events were experiences that should never be discussed again. So why are they resurfacing during these crucial 2 years of my life? Things were picking up, and I believed that, over time, maturity would be inevitable. Evidently, this belief has been proven groundless with regards to some people. While it is the mere minority this time round, you have to wonder if ostracism will ever vanish from my life. I think not.

Sometimes, things happen around you that make you feel like you’re living a dream. But sooner or later, we all have to wake up. You tend to wonder, is waking up a good or bad thing? When you attempt to restrain yourself from succumbing to the influences around you, yet your heart tells you otherwise, what should you do?

This raging battle within me, I hope I find the solution. Things are getting out of hand.

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